Boys and Fireworks…and Regrets

Like any other boy, I loved shooting off fireworks when I was a kid. But it was illegal to buy, sell, or own fireworks in the small Iowa town where I grew up. But they weren’t illegal in Missouri. I can remember that about a week before the Fourth of July, people would load up in cars and make road trips south to buy fireworks.

I remember one year in particular. I was probably nine or ten years old and my older sister worked at the local grocery store. One of her co-worker, a boy of about her age, was going to Missouri on a fireworks run. I don’t remember his name, which is probably just as well. That way I can’t incriminate him.

What I can say is that my sister came home from work one day and told us he was going to Missouri. He’d offered to pick up fireworks for my brother and me if we had the money. We jumped at the opportunity. We pooled our funds and sent our money with her to give to her friend.

A few days later my sister told us he was back and arrangements were made for us to go pick up the goods. My brother and I were both too young to drive, and we lived outside of town. So we went with mom on a day when she was grocery shopping.

Being young at the time, not to mention naive, I didn’t know how much it resembled a drug deal. We met in the parking lot of the store to make the exchange. We’d already given him the money so all he had to do was to give us the fireworks.

We followed him to his car where he opened up the trunk. We saw two paper bags filled with packages of fireworks wrapped with thin, colored tissue paper. Both bags were ours. I don’t know about my brother, but I was thrilled to see how far our money had gone.

“Now, you’re not going to be shooting these off in town, are you?” my sister’s friend asked. Considering that fireworks were illegal in Iowa and that he could get in a lot trouble if we got caught, it was a legitimate question. If we were caught with fireworks, then he could get into trouble.

“Yeah, we’re going to shoot them off right in front of the cop-shop,” I replied in the typical smart-aleck fashion of a nine or ten year old.

I don’t remember him saying anything more. Maybe he told us to be careful with them. Maybe my brother, who was three years older, jumped in to say we were going to shoot them off out in the country. What I do remember, to this day, are the words I said to him; Yeah, we’re going to shoot them off right in front of the cop-shop.

Those words have haunted me since I can remember.

It wasn’t like he knew me and he was doing me a favor. He only knew my sister. He was just doing it for me because of her. And I repaid his favor by being a jerk to him.

Looking back on my life, if there was ever just one thing I could do over, I would take back those words. It may seem inconsequential, just a smart-aleck response from a smart-aleck snot-nosed kid, but for some reason, those words have really bothered me.

If I could find him and ask, he probably wouldn’t even remember it. I’ve asked my brother. He doesn’t remember. It might be that I’m the only one in the world who remembers what I said to him. But it still matters to me.

Yes, there were worse things that I’ve done since then. We don’t need to go into the gory details now. I’ll leave that for later episodes. Let’s just say I wasn’t a perfect kid. I wasn’t that bad, but I wasn’t perfect.

So why would I choose this one, seemingly inconsequential to take back if I only had one thing in my life I could change? That’s easy.

The rest of the things I did all add up to make me who I am today. When I get up in the morning, I look into the mirror. And I have to admit that I like the person looking back. If I were to go back and fix one of those things, one of those worse things, I might not be the same person I am today. I’m not willing to risk that. I consider them life lessons that I needed to learn to become the person I am.

I know that this incident also helped to shape who I am, especially considering the amount of time I’ve spent thinking about it. So maybe I don’t want a do over on this either. After all, it was an important lesson I learned. Maybe it’s okay to just say I regret what happened. And if you happen to be reading this and you’re the man who used to work with my sister, and you remember a snot-nosed kid being a smart-aleck to you when you were just doing his sister a favor, then I would like to say, “I’m sorry.”

~Doug

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The Thumbtack

I don’t know how it ever started. I suppose the same way anything like this does, slow at first and escalating until things are completely out of control. At least that’s how it seems. Everything was fine one day and crazy the next.

But it isn’t that I’m not to blame. I can’t say that I was the chief instigator, but I probably was. If I wasn’t, I’m pretty sure my tenth-grade English teacher thought I was. It wasn’t as if there were a lot of suspects. Somehow there were only three boys in a class of thirty, and all three of us sat in the back. She had a one-in-three chance of getting it right. And more times than not, all three of us were involved in the shenanigans. But as I recall, I’m the only one she ever tried to get even with, and she did a pretty good job of it.

She was a lot of fun, as I recall, and that’s probably why things got so far out of control. I can picture here yet today, even though that was thirty years ago, standing up front in the class upon the raised platform, almost a stage, lecturing on whatever book it was we were reading at the time. I remember And Then There Were None by Agatha Christi. I might be able to recall others if tried, but they’re not germane to the story.

And it was up on this raised platform where most of the mischief occurred. I’m not sure which happened first, but I think it was what we did to her desk. It was one of those big battleship-gray office desks. It sat right up on the edge of the platform and had a piece of steel in the front so we couldn’t look up her skirt when she was sitting there.

I don’t know whose idea it was, but before class one day, we turned it around so the drawers faced the class. Then we changed everything on the top so it looked perfectly normally. She came into the class and sat down in her chair and tried to roll it up under the desk, but she couldn’t because she rammed her knees into that metal back. The class was completely silent except for the three guys in the back laughing our asses off.

She was a good sport about it and we didn’t get in trouble or anything. She just made us put it back the way it was. I’m sure the fact that we got away with it only spurred us on to greater feats of mischief.

I don’t remember how long it was since the desk incident, but the next thing we did was to put a thumbtack on her chair, point up. Looking back, I realize it was a pretty dumb stunt, but it seemed like a good idea at the time.

As before, she came into the classroom and sat down in the chair behind her desk. You would have thought that she would’ve learned her lesson, but she didn’t. I think it was because she took attendance at the beginning of class, though I don’t remember precisely.

I waited in breathless anticipation. And there, after she sat down and pulled her chair under her desk, I saw her eyes go wide. She later told us that she didn’t exactly sit on the thumbtack, but rather rolled back onto it as she got comfortable in her chair. Looking back that’s probably all that saved me from suspension, or perhaps even expulsion.

As it was, she just seemed to let the whole thing go. We had a couple of laughs about it, and it was over. Or so I thought. She was a vindictive one, that tenth-grade English teacher. She let me think that she’d forgotten all about it, but she hadn’t. She was just biding her time.

I don’t precisely know how long it was before she struck back. It may have been a day, or it may have been a month. If memory serves, it was about a week, but memory is such a fickly thing, never acting the way you want it to.

In any case, I came into class one day and she was there, which was unusual, but not unheard of. I put my books down and sat down at my desk; and onto a tack that she had placed there for me. Unlike hers, where she rolled back onto it, I struck mine directly. Luckily I had the reflexes of a sixteen year old in good shape. I came up off of that tack almost before it penetrated skin; almost.

As I assessed the situation, both in my chair, and around the classroom, I discovered the tack and more than my English teacher laughing. I don’t know how many of the students were in on it, but obviously a fair number. I picked the tack out of my hind side, which was stuck more in my denim jeans than it was in me, checked my seat for siblings and sat down. My pride was only slightly worse for the wear and I learned a lot about life that day.

Even though my English teacher was a person of responsibility and authority, I learned that life doesn’t always have to be so serious. Sometimes it’s all in fun, and it isn’t truly funny until someone has a tack sticking out of their butt.

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New Focus For This Blog

I’m been wondering what to do with this blog. I keep my website up to date pretty well, which makes the blog kind of inefficient. On top of that, I don’t post blogs that often, which makes it even worse.

So I’ve decided that I’m going to use this space to post some of my writing exercises. That way, at least it might be a little bit interesting. I’m going to try to post something at least once a week. We’ll see how it works out.

~Doug

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Went to See Legion This Weekend

I was in Dallas this weekend with my wife and daughter. We managed to squeeze in a movie and went to see Legion. We walked into the theater and it was almost empty. It made us wonder if we’d missed some bad reviews about it. But then it started.

Wow!

It was pretty darn good. There were a few things left unexplained and there weren’t as many angels as I would have thought there would be, but the ones that were there were awesome.

I don’t want to give too much away, but overall, I’d give Legion 4 1/2 stars out of 5. If you haven’t seen it, I suggest you consider it.

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Fern Gully on Steroids

I took my family to see Avatar yesterday. That includes a 14-year-old girl, a 21-year-old boy and parents who are…well, let’s just say were older. Universally, the four of us walked out in agreement that it was a good movie.

Although the first 20 minutes seemed to be slow, it was necessary to set up what happens during the rest of the movie. And once you get into the heart of the storyline, the eye candy is incredible. The colors were fantastic and the CGI was good enough that you forgot you were in a story. It was seamless.

The movie seemed a little long to me, and the plot line was a little predictable, but it was easy to immerse yourself in the story. The characters were interesting and they really went to a lot of effort to ensure a great experience.

What can I say? It’s a lot like Fern Gully, but on steroids. The story is better written and the graphics were amazing. This picture has raised the bar for CGI graphics. In short, this is a movie I’m glad I saw in the theater and I can’t wait to get it on Blu-ray.

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A Day Without Writing

For the last month, I’ve been typing my little fingers off, trying to write a novel during the month of November for the National Novel Writing Month – NaNoWriMo for short. Anyone who has known me for any length of time has heard me talk about NaNoWriMo on more than one occasion.

The goal of NaNoWriMo is to write a 50,000 word novel in just 30 days. That’s about 200 pages double spaced and is about the size of Catcher in the Rye or Brave New Worlds. On average, you need to write about 1,667 words a day. For me, that’s anywhere between 90 minutes and 2 hours.

And yesterday, I finished my novel. It topped out at 52,780 words. And today, the last day of NaNoWriMo, I’m not writing. And it feels strange.

I just spent somewhere in the neighborhood of 50-60 hours writing this last novel, and today, all I can think is that I need to write. I know that sounds strange, but it’s true. I’m starting to go through withdrawals.

I don’t think I’m going to be able to stand it. I’m going to have to put my fingers to the keyboard and I’m going to have to do it; I’m going to have to write. It won’t be work on my novel. It will probably be on a short story I’ve been thinking about.

They always tell you that to be a writer, you have to write every day. I’m telling you that if you write every day, you’re going to miss it when you don’t.

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Exercise Ball

Sitting in cube-city for a living, there isn’t a lot you can do to make life more interesting. But every once in a while, something comes along that make you sit up and take notice.

Speaking of sitting, this came from a guy I used to work with. His name was Vaughn, Instead of sitting on a chair, he sat on an exercise ball. I was never that close to Vaughn, but those around him assured me that he LOVED sitting on the exercise ball, instead of a chair.

That was months ago now.

Well, last week, a few of us decided that we were going to get exercise balls to replace our chairs. Chris, Alex, Jonathan and I now have big gray balls instead of the ergonomic chairs that used to decorate our desks.

Why would we do that, you ask? Well, for one thing, we’re writers. And to be honest, we do most of our work with iPods going and headphones in our ears. It blocks out most of the distractions that keep us from finishing our work.

Now, put us all on exercise balls, and we are basically bouncing all day long. It doesn’t sound like much, but consider that our bodies are constantly in motion; all day long. Basically, it’s a form of passive-aggressive exercise.

Chris and Jon both spend plenty of time in the gym, and they both stay they can feel the effects of the exercise balls. I don’t spend time in the gym and I can tell you that I certainly feel it, but not to the point of discomfort. Let’s just say I notice it.

I replaced my work chair with an exercise ball 3 days ago, and I’ve already replaced my computer chair at home too. It’s too much fun, listening to music and bouncing to the beat.

I don’t know if it affects my productivity yet, but I don’t think it will. I think that if I really get into the zone, I won’t be bouncing and I won’t notice.

Time will tell, and I will be sure to tell you how it works out. Until then, I say that if you’re going to replace you chair at work, then, you need to get a 75cm ball. Wal-Mart has them for about $17. Trust me, it’s worth it.

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An Enjoyable Read for Teens and Adults Alike

I just recently finished read Killing Mr. Griffin by Lois Duncan and I have to say, it was a nice read. It’s an older story, making its first appearance in 1990, so some of the references and dialogue was a bit dated, but not distractingly so. It’s a psychological thriller – almost horror – for teens. I don’t see many books today that fit into this genre and it was a nice change of pace from vampire romance and wizard schools.

The story is about some kids who set out to get even with their English teacher, Mr. Griffin. Before they know it, they’re in over their heads and scrambling to get out of it. While I will say that the plot was predictable, there were still enough twists and turns to make it an enjoyable page-turner. She has a likable cast of characters and at first, it’s hard to figure out who you want to like and who you want to hate. But she gives enough clues to help the reader sort out the good guys from the villains and things quickly get under way.

I really liked the book. It was well written and turned out to be a quick, easy read. It kept me interested and engaged. If you enjoy a good scare or a psychological thriller, then I would certainly recommend Killing Mr. Griffin to teens and adults alike.

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Convulsions

Saturday was a good day. Not only was it the Fourth of July, I had a drabble (a story of exactly 100 words) accepted for publication. The story is Convulsions and the market is Sex and Murder.

I haven’t been submitting much lately, focusing on other projects, and it just felt good to have something accepted.

~Doug

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Writing with Sarah

I was able to skip out of work a little early yesterday and I took my daughter, Sarah, to It’s a Grind to write. We both have Dell Mini netbooks so we took them with us.

It was a lot of fun and pretty productive, even though it’s not a real comfortable place to write.

~Doug

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